middle of the night

ok so i cant sleep and i cant see that no one is even comment or prabably reading my blog so i could pretty much say anything...
but i dont know what to say that i wouldnt normallly say.. so i guess il just tell you what happened in the past few days...

ok so first ..
mariah is trying to get me and josh back together.
idk i think he has a girlfriend.
all i know is his " girlfriend" [[i say it like taht cause idk lol ]] is a grade below us and he's probably playin her like he did to me and a bunch of other girls who really liked him .
and i think i want to go back out with him... i mean i know it wont last cause idk his "relationships" -if u even want to call it that- never last that long.
when we were going out he wanted me to kiss him cause me & him havent even kisses anyone
yes i know by my friend marie thats the sad and pethetic. and im sorry but she's ust a hoe so its only bad if your a slut who kisses every guy she sees! [[not literly...i hope...lol]]
but ya so we were going to kiss but then he broke up with me cause he still liked his ex and he didnt see a "spark"
he never even asked out his ex again so me and my friends just think he played me like he did with the others..
im just confused i mean i still like him but i dont at the same time..ughh i hate it
..... lol hey! i just realized i can type with out looking : ] lol im pround of myself..but i still have to take typing in the second semester : [...
lol back to the subject! anyway is it bad taht i still like him even though i know if we even ever do go back out he'll probably play me like last time?
my friend hayley said i should get over him cause he's a jerkface..lol he's my jerkface : ]
lol i call him that to his face ill be like hey jerkface : ]
ive been calling him that sense before we went out
im not sure because thinking about him makes me want to cry and smile at the same time.... he gets off his crutches on monday : ] i hope anyway i'm going to wear his jacket tomorrow lol im going to " forget" mine in my locker :P
lol sooo ya if anyone even reads this please comment... my sister is at my aunts and i feel lonley : [ lol ill actually probably try to go to bed soon.. im freezing! its like 30 somethin degrees outside and we dont have heat..i know it sucks!
so im really cold im going to go undera bunch of blankets and go to bed...well try atleast : ]
good night/ bye
--grace : ]


i just wanted you to know i think about you everynight and when i fall asleep you are in my dreams, just like in a movie the one you wanna see with that happy ending <33--hawthorne heights we are so last year : ] my favorite song right now

night!remember comment! : ]