i hatee everythingg about youu....

ok so yesterday[[saturday]] i went to go visit my grandparent in illonios..chagio to be exact : ]
but so i woke up at like mindight[again] and i ate dinner..[[i was asleep during actaul dinner :P ]]
and we left for chagio at like 8 and i fell asleep in the car for a while and thats it
then we went to six flags and it was freezing!
but im scared of heights like majorly!but i twas fun..people were going around dressed up in scary costumes scaring u
it was freeky!
and on this weekend i also figured out i still like josh ..alot...
the title? tahts sorta how i feel about him and i was listening to the song by three days grace...
but ya i still like him i dont think i stopped and i dont want him to know because i dont ant to be hurt like taht again..
i know no one really reads this or comments it but i still like getting it out..


but ya and the last thing we said to each other before he broke up with me was i love you and i love you too : [
so ya but im totally freezing!
and i have to get off my stomach hurts and right now ill im thinking about is him...
so bye...


so tell me which hurts more, thinking you should hate him or knowing you dont?
: [

--grace<33

middle of the night

ok so i cant sleep and i cant see that no one is even comment or prabably reading my blog so i could pretty much say anything...
but i dont know what to say that i wouldnt normallly say.. so i guess il just tell you what happened in the past few days...

ok so first ..
mariah is trying to get me and josh back together.
idk i think he has a girlfriend.
all i know is his " girlfriend" [[i say it like taht cause idk lol ]] is a grade below us and he's probably playin her like he did to me and a bunch of other girls who really liked him .
and i think i want to go back out with him... i mean i know it wont last cause idk his "relationships" -if u even want to call it that- never last that long.
when we were going out he wanted me to kiss him cause me & him havent even kisses anyone
yes i know by my friend marie thats the sad and pethetic. and im sorry but she's ust a hoe so its only bad if your a slut who kisses every guy she sees! [[not literly...i hope...lol]]
but ya so we were going to kiss but then he broke up with me cause he still liked his ex and he didnt see a "spark"
he never even asked out his ex again so me and my friends just think he played me like he did with the others..
im just confused i mean i still like him but i dont at the same time..ughh i hate it
..... lol hey! i just realized i can type with out looking : ] lol im pround of myself..but i still have to take typing in the second semester : [...
lol back to the subject! anyway is it bad taht i still like him even though i know if we even ever do go back out he'll probably play me like last time?
my friend hayley said i should get over him cause he's a jerkface..lol he's my jerkface : ]
lol i call him that to his face ill be like hey jerkface : ]
ive been calling him that sense before we went out
im not sure because thinking about him makes me want to cry and smile at the same time.... he gets off his crutches on monday : ] i hope anyway i'm going to wear his jacket tomorrow lol im going to " forget" mine in my locker :P
lol sooo ya if anyone even reads this please comment... my sister is at my aunts and i feel lonley : [ lol ill actually probably try to go to bed soon.. im freezing! its like 30 somethin degrees outside and we dont have heat..i know it sucks!
so im really cold im going to go undera bunch of blankets and go to bed...well try atleast : ]
good night/ bye
--grace : ]


i just wanted you to know i think about you everynight and when i fall asleep you are in my dreams, just like in a movie the one you wanna see with that happy ending <33--hawthorne heights we are so last year : ] my favorite song right now

night!remember comment! : ]

ughh more drama!! : [

ok so today at school i think i figured out i still like my ex...but im not sure if i even stopped liking him in the first place..
and my friend jake was really upset because the girl he is like inlove with kissed her boyfriend for te first time..and they are getting serious... so jake is pretty upset.. :[
but ill tell you more about it later my dad is bringing me some taco bell home cause im hungry and didnt eat dinner..
lol
so im going to go eat
im not sure what my quote will be today i havent really though of it so ill just pick a random one..

im here which roughly translated means i'd rather die then stay away from you <33

--grace <33 : ]

my very first blog..

ok so this is my first blog on this website.. so i guess ill tell you alittle about myself..
im going to do what my sister does and not put my friends real names..ill put different ones, ill try to keep them straight : ]
ok so my name is grace.
my best friends' names are cassandra , mary & savannah.
i'm not totalt sure who all my true friends are but i know who cant trust.
i can trust my sister with everything, her name is alice.
my brother is just really annoying, his name is mark.
im the middle child.
im straight.
my family is totally insane but i love them.
same with my friends..well my friends are the fun type of crazy..my family is just kind of weird.lol
im a striaght A student..well most of the time..
im not sure if i like anyone right now.. i just broke up with my boyfriend last week..he still liked his ex girlfriend..i guess my mom was right when she said i was a rebound girl. so ya at the moment i think guys just suck.
[[im not totally sure what to put so im just writing random stuff about my self on here]]
i like smileys : ]
i love the twilight series.
i have just started reading blood and chocolate and so far i really like it : ]
i like food but im not fat..[[or so people tell me..]]
im random.
i like to write and read.
i cant go very long with out having a book.
if i finish a book i have to find a new one within about 3 days : ]
im a band geek.
i play the flute.
i love it when someone can make me laugh.
i love quotes about love.<3
even if its about a broken heart < / 3
im not sure what else to write so im going to end it here.i think im going to end my blogs each time with a quote.


ok well ill write again as soon as i can : ]


you live, you laugh, you love, you learn, you scream, you cry, you crash, you burn

my favorite quote at the moment : ]

-- grace <33